I didn’t stop believing in God…
But after that disappointment, I stopped trusting Him the same way.
You know what I mean?
It wasn’t loud. It wasn’t dramatic. I still prayed, still showed up to church, still said the right things.
But deep down, a quiet ache had settled in.
And somewhere in that ache, I built a wall.
When Life Doesn’t Go the Way You Prayed
I had prayed with my whole heart.
I believed things would turn out differently.
But when the answer didn’t come… or came in a way that felt like silence… I felt abandoned.
“Why didn’t You show up?”
“Wasn’t I faithful?”
“Didn’t I do what You asked?”
I wrestled with questions I was too afraid to say out loud.
What I didn’t realize at the time was this: God wasn’t afraid of my disappointment.
He wasn’t offended by my questions.
He was waiting in the silence — not with shame, but with love.
What Helped Me Take the First Step Back
It didn’t happen overnight.
I didn’t suddenly “get over it” and snap back into joyful faith.
But one day, I whispered a tired prayer that changed everything:
“Lord, I miss trusting You.”
That was it.
Not a fancy prayer. Not a long one. Just honest.
And I think that’s all God needed—my honesty.
From there, I slowly started letting Him back into the hurt places.
Not just the “church version” of me. But the disappointed, weary, unsure me.
I Found Him in the Small Things
I started noticing Him again…
- In a sunrise I didn’t expect to see
- In a verse that found me before I could find it
- In a friend’s kind text that came at the right moment
God was still present.
Even though I had closed the door, He never left the doorstep.
And the more I noticed Him in the little things, the more I started to believe that He really hadn’t left me in the big things either.
What the Bible Says About Disappointment
I used to feel guilty for feeling let down by God.
But the Bible is full of people who felt disappointed too.
- David cried out in the Psalms, “How long, Lord? Will You forget me forever?”
- Martha told Jesus, “If You had been here, my brother wouldn’t have died.”
- Even Jesus said in the garden, “Take this cup from Me…”
And yet… they still trusted.
Not because they understood everything. But because they knew God’s heart was still good—even when life wasn’t.
Trust Looks Different After Pain
I won’t lie.
Trusting God again after disappointment felt scary.
Like stepping onto a bridge that once broke beneath me.
But I’ve learned something beautiful: God doesn’t demand blind trust. He invites honest trust.
He meets us in our questions. He sits with us in our silence. He gently shows us, day by day, that He’s still worthy of our trust.
What Helped Me Rebuild Trust in God
If you’ve been through disappointment and feel like your trust is cracked or missing altogether, I want you to know… you’re not alone.
Here are a few things that helped me rebuild trust in God, slowly and gently:
I got honest. I stopped pretending I was okay. God can work with honesty.
I remembered past faithfulness. I made a list of times He had shown up. It helped me see the pattern.
I stopped rushing. Trust doesn’t have to come all at once. It grows back one moment at a time.
I opened the Bible differently. Not for answers, but for reminders of who God really is.
I asked God to help me trust again. And He did—gently, kindly, patiently.
đź’› Final Thoughts: God Can Handle Your Disappointment
If you’re sitting in the middle of a disappointment right now, please hear this:
God is not mad at you. He’s not distant. He hasn’t forgotten you.
He knows how that broken thing feels.
And He’s not asking you to fix it—He’s asking you to give it to Him.
You can bring Him your honest questions.
You can lay down your hurt and still be held by grace.
He’s not afraid of your disappointment.
He wants to meet you right in the middle of it… and lead you gently back to trust.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” —Psalm 34:18
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