There’s something about being at your lowest that brings you face to face with what you really believe. I didn’t expect to come to that place. I didn’t expect to question everything. But I did. And if you’re in that same place—or have been there—you’re not alone.
This is the story of what God showed me when I almost walked away from my faith… and what He might be wanting to show you, too.
When Life Broke Something Inside Me
There wasn’t one single moment that did it. It was the slow build-up of disappointment, loss, and silence from heaven. Prayers that went unanswered. People I loved who left or changed. A constant ache I couldn’t name.
I kept going to church. I kept saying the right things. But inside? I felt numb. Spiritually tired. Alone.
And then one night, I whispered something I never thought I would:
“God, I don’t know if I can keep doing this.”
The Silence Was Loud
I expected God to speak immediately, to flood me with comfort like He had in the past. But instead, I got silence. Not because He was angry. Not because He didn’t care. But because sometimes, silence is part of the process.
In that quiet, I began to feel the weight of everything I’d carried. My faith had been based on doing—serving, fixing, solving, being strong for others. And I’d come to the end of myself.
I didn’t need another sermon. I needed a Savior.
A Gentle Reminder in the Dark
One morning, I opened my Bible, not out of discipline but desperation. And these words stood out like they were underlined by the hand of God:
“A bruised reed He will not break, and a smoldering wick He will not snuff out.” —Isaiah 42:3
I cried. Because I was that bruised reed. That flickering flame. And instead of rebuking me for being weak, God reminded me that He holds even the weakest with tenderness.
I realized something in that moment:
God wasn’t disappointed in me. He was with me.
What Faith Really Looks Like
I thought strong faith meant having all the answers. Never wavering. Always trusting with confidence. But what God showed me was different.
Sometimes strong faith is just choosing to stay.
To whisper one more prayer.
To open the Bible even when it feels empty.
To say “God, help” when you don’t have the words for anything else.
That’s faith, too. And God honors it deeply.
He Was Holding Me All Along
I didn’t walk away that day. Not because I felt better. Not because everything was fixed. But because I saw a glimpse of who God really is:
- A God who sits with us in our sorrow.
- A God who understands our doubts.
- A God who stays even when we want to run.
And maybe today, He’s reaching for you with that same gentle truth.
Final Thoughts: God Sees You
If you’re hanging on by a thread, if your faith feels like it’s unraveling… please know this:
God is not intimidated by your questions.
He’s not distant because you’re struggling.
He’s near. He’s listening. And He’s not letting go.
Don’t walk away just yet. There’s more ahead than you can see right now.
Let this be your reminder:
You are seen. You are loved. And God hasn’t left you.
